#3 Getting angry over things will get you nowhere. Except to the road of aging. With all the frowning and the grunting that you do. You know, when you're mad. So stop. And smile.
#1 Distance is good in relationships. You really do not want to be stuck on each other's hips all the time. Besides, it will leave your significant other wanting for more and the relationship much more interesting ;)
As I was walking to the library to meet friends for a literature discussion, an idea suddenly popped into my head. For weeks, I've tried to stay positive over all the bad things that have happened and despite having great friends around telling and assuring me that everything will be okay, I won't feel okay until I myself, make sure that I am okay. What I told myself were not the wisest things you expect to say to yourself to make you feel better but hey, at least it sorta works for me and it's comforting.
The idea that I've thought of is to share my life tips with you readers. whoa, bunyi cam whoa. Well, not that great of a tip but something that by any chance, will make you smile after going through a horrible day, rotten date, sucky relationships and friendships, dan yang sewaktu dengannya. I'm not that good in giving advices or good at cracking jokes but I just want to. ok?
Sheikh tagged me again. Thank you kind friend, I am honoured hehe. :)
The rules are simple. ~Use Google Image to search the answers to the questions below. Then you must choose a picture in the first page of the results, and post it as your answer. After that tag 6 people...
I am:
high on life, not drugs. and definitely not HSM. I had no choice people.
I really want to go:
ice-skating with friends. making fun of yourself by falling on your butt is liberating !
My favourite place:
same as Sheikh's answer. There's no other place like home. :)
My favourite drink:
same as Azie's answer:) nothing beats a glass of cool plain water. It cleanses your body and purifies your skin. awet muda gitu.
My favourite food:
this was hard to choose. I have lots. But I really do find that it's hard to resist a plate of nasi beriani any day hee
My favourite colour:
all shades of blue. :)
but the weird thing is, when it comes to clothes, I really adore these two colours.
coral pink and,
grey. Aah, I want all of those up there!
My favourite show(s) :
The O.C I know most people roll their eyes at the sight of the unrealistic appearances of 16 year-olds on the show or the sound of "California" blaring from the television, but this show has a sentiment of nostalgia for me. Hey, I was a 16 year-old once and The O.C made me believe I can do anything. Like steal a car, burn down a model home, dress like Wonder Woman or write a comic book for a guy, etc.
been a fan of these lovely ladies since high school! Rory sangat cantikkk!
whoa, this is super dee duper uber gile fantastico manyak (add your own superlative) cool. Found it at teenvogue.com. Let me know if you stumble on it anywhere. I want it!
There I was, stuck in between the self-help books' section and the women fiction's section, contemplating whether to purchase a book that can turn me into everyone's friend and easily winning them with my wit and intelligence (something the book would teach me) and a romantic novel about a girl who usually plays it safe in the game of love and is tired so she goes to Rome to live life and find an Italian man. One of those carpe diem, totally fake, hardly-ever-happens-in-real-life story plots. Recently turning cynical towards anything romantic, you (and myself) would think my first choice was appropriate and worth to spend money on. But alas, I succumbed. Love is definitely overrated, but I need some mushiness and a bit of warmth tonight. You know which one I picked.
I love the makeup on the girl! Her eyelashes are thick with wads of mascara, eyes lined with eyeliner and cheeks powdered with orange/brown-coloured blush and her high cheek bones, and the nude lips, Ah!
For the longest time, people who are close to me know that I'm not at all patient. I get agitated easily when I don't get what I want in the required time I set, but I don't normally show it in fits of anger. I whine. Or be very quiet. Yes, I'm different that way.
But now, I'm surprised at myself. I can seriously picture myself on a beach with a baggy shirt and big shorts, not a care in the world, listening to good ol' Jack Johnson. Yes, I feel that mellow. Who knows all this mellowness might turn me into a rasta; getting all high and sporting dreadlocks and saying "Kiss me neck!" all the time. *"Kiss me neck" is a common exclamation of surprise in Jamaican language. Not literally asking people to kiss my neck haha.* OK THIS IS REALLY A JOKE. I WILL NEVER TURN INTO A RASTA DON'T YOU WORRY.
The thing I wanted to point out is I've become more patient. And it feels really good. I'm taking every thing one step at a time now. I figured what's the point of rushing things? You have time don't worry. Plus, I've learned that rushing is bad the hard way. Whatever comes my way, I will try and handle them the best way possible. But I'm not saying we should just take whatever life offers us without showing any gratitude or even any care. Patience doesn't turn us into robots; we still have to be stern. If it's something bad or worrying, change it any way you can and turn it into something positive. That is why 'sabar adalah separuh dari iman.' I think that's the answer to my new found calmness. I think He has answered my prayers :)
And to tell you the truth, this is not a result of my own hard work nor reading every page of the latest self-help book on patience. But merely help or lack there of from a friend. That person doesn't even know it, but yes, he taught me how to think wisely and mind my words carefully and not be all frappy-like and if you're reading this, I'd just like to say Thank you very much. phew:)
hehe sorry Wani for copying the title of your post, but I really did intend to write on her. Ms. Farhana bt Zarkafar.
I just wanted to say...
Omedeto tomodachi! Congratulations for making the cut! You're going to Japan! To JAPAN! I bet for someone like you who loves everything Japanese, it's like a dream come true. I'm really, genuinely ecstatic for youu! Can't wait to see you so I can scream "Omedeto!" out loud :))
"When the day is long and the night, the night is yours alone, When you're sure you've had enough of this life, well hang on Don't let yourself go, everybody cries and everybody hurts sometimes"
"but there you go for the last time I finally know now what I should have known then that I could still be ruthless if you'll let me but there you go and I'm not done you're waving goodbye, but at least you're having fun the rising tide will not let you forget me forget me"
My first sight of this book was online at twilightsaga.com months ago but I never had the thought of it reaching our shores. I know it will find its way here soon. Little did I know that it has! My sister, Jwa had her friend who works at MPH lend the book to her for one day so she can bring it home and show me! And thank you so much Sya, for saving one for me! The MPH in SACC had only 5 copies and when I went there just now, there was only one left! And I know it was just screaming my name. Saw another book called "Nice Girls Don't Have Fangs", read the summary at the back, one reviewer said "Move over, Sookie Stackhouse", got hooked, went to the counter and ka-ching! This happened less than 10 minutes. Oh books, how on earth did you know I'm easily seduced? I hate you.
Twilight: Director's Notebook by Catherine Hardwicke
Nice Girls Don't Have Fangs by Molly Harper
I know I know, exam's not over yet. We haven't even done our first paper, yeah yeah I know. I'll save these for later. hmm. But maybe a sneak peak or two? Maybe finish them before next Thursday? I can't resist theemmmmmm wuuuuuuuu
p.s: Thanks Ma, Jwa and Pa for a lovely morning and afternoon. Love you.
I know you may not want to see me On your way down from the clouds Would you hear me if I told you That my heart is with you now
She's only happy in the sun She's only happy in the sun
Did you find what you were after? The pain and the laughter brought you to your knees But if the sun sets you free, sets you free You'll be free indeed, Indeed
She's only happy in the sun She's only happy in the sun
Every time I hear you laughing, I hear you laughing It makes me cry Like the story of life, of your life Is hello, goodbye
Shes only happy in the sun Shes only happy in the sun
-Ben Harper
it's been 5 months now. I still miss you so. I love you Nek. Al-Fatihah.
I seriously thought I could run from it. Be tough for a while. Not be a girly girl and all weak in the knees and mushy. But I just can't. I am forever in love with love. whyyyy :((
Ok to make myself feel better, ehem, Nashrah, relax. Watching romantic movies is not wrong. It does not mean you are turning into your old self again. It does not mean you are weak. You are just a normal, 21 year old girl who is a romantic. That is you, you can't change that. Ok?
Currently watching A Walk To Remember on youtube. That's why. Especially part 7. Kenangan-kenangan lama datang semula menerjah diri ku. Shane West, why are you playing doctor instead of romantic leads? Unfortunately, ER tidak ditayangkan di sini. Apparently Malaysian tv stations do not know how to pick good quality series. Ok byk ckp btul. cuba anda lihat sendiri.
Vesper Lynd: [after discussing poker skills on the train] What else can you surmise, Mr. Bond?
James Bond: About you, Miss Lynd? Well, your beauty's a problem. You worry you won't be taken seriously.
Vesper Lynd: Which one can say of any attractive woman with half a brain.
James Bond: True. But this one overcompensates by wearing slightly masculine clothing. Being more aggressive than her female colleagues. Which gives her a somewhat *prickly* demeanor, and ironically enough, makes it less likely for her to be accepted and promoted by her male superiors, who mistake her insecurities for arrogance. Now, I'd have normally gone with "only child," but by the way you ignored the quip about your parents... I'm going to have to go with "orphan."
Vesper Lynd: All right... by the cut of your suit, you went to Oxford or wherever. Naturally you think human beings dress like that. But you wear it with such disdain, my guess is you didn't come from money, and your school friends never let you forget it. Which means that you were at that school by the grace of someone else's charity: hence that chip on your shoulder. And since you’re first thought about me ran to "orphan," that's what I'd say you are.
[he smiles but says nothing]
Vesper Lynd: Oh, you are? I like this poker thing. And that makes perfect sense! Since MI6 looks for maladjusted young men, who give little thought to sacrificing others in order to protect queen and country. You know... former SAS types with easy smiles and expensive watches.
[Glances at his wrist]
Vesper Lynd: Rolex?
James Bond: Omega.
Vesper Lynd: Beautiful. Now, having just met you, I wouldn't go as far as calling you a cold-hearted bastard...
James Bond: No, of course not.
Vesper Lynd: But it wouldn't be a stretch to imagine. You think of women as disposable pleasures, rather than meaningful pursuits. So as charming as you are, Mr. Bond, I will be keeping my eye on our government's money - and off your perfectly-formed arse.
James Bond: You noticed?
Vesper Lynd: Even accountants have imagination. How was your lamb?
I don't care if he sleeps with his mouth open during lectures. If there ever was a guy in my faculty who looks like James Franco, it would be a dream come true. But of course, no one beats the real deal.
.. we need less crap in this world. Or we will be on the brink of destruction. Aren't we already? So people, please. Give yourself a really good bitch slap and just wake the hell up. The entire universe does not revolve around you.
p.s: this is really a reminder for myself. But sure, I'll let you in this too. My pleasure.
"I'd rather dance with you than talk with you So why don't we just move into the other room There's space for us to shake, and hey, I like this tune
Even if I could hear what you said I doubt my reply would be interesting for you to hear Because I haven't read a single book all year And the only film I saw, I didn't like it at all"
-Kings of Convenience, "I'd Rather Dance with You"
Nothing beats a good laugh with your grandfather over Pendekar Bujang Lapuk on the telly. This really made my day. I love you Tuk. If only she was still here, then it all would be complete.
If only I was still a kid, and my father would put me and my sisters to sleep every night by singing "Tunggu Sekejap" by P. Ramlee, with no worries in our heads, no tests or assignments, no nothing. It would be the nicest thing.
If only I was strong enough, and tough enough to face everything with a smile.
This so-called study week started off pretty badly, with me holding wads of tissues on my nose at 4 in the morning to stop it from overflowing if you know what I mean, trying to get 5 chapters of How To Teach Speaking in my head in order to answer the test perfectly. Already I started to get all weepy because I did not intend to sleep at all last night. I thought I could just take a nap; a really really short nap of 10 minutes at 12 ish a.m after standing around, applying make up to the drama students and putting finishing touches on my group's creative project. Oh good job by the way. I really enjoyed it :D but anyway, as I was saying, I was pretty beaten up.
As glad and thankful I was to suddenly wake up at 4 a.m, the nerves did not leave at all. I couldn't study properly because I kept dozing off at sentences that required me to read it a few times in order to comprehend it. Baca, baca, lentuk. Sedih gila. I almost gave myself a slap before I thought, ok wudhuk is way better than slapping yourself around. Unfortunately, it worked for just a few minutes before I finally gave up at 7 something. I seriously needed some shuteye. After golek-golek a few rounds jugak la on the bed, then only I drag myself off and took a shower, got dressed up dengan muka yang tak boleh blah, put the boink bag in the backseat, started off the engine, ready to drive, when I see the gas is empty. And it is already 8.15 for crying out loud. Rasa cam nak nangissss. buduhhhhh.
Story cut short, I really do not know how my test scores will be like, as it was all a blur. Then, we were supposed to have this pot-luck slash makan-makan because dah last class thing but my throat had something wrong because I felt like puking, and I don't even know why my throat was like that because I hardly ever vomit. Rasa. macam. nak. buat something extreme gila time tu jgk tapi tak tau ape. After few visits to the bathroom, then only I can consume Aina's brownies yang sedap gila, cakes, twisties, Nabil's chocs and drinks.
And right now, as we speak (or type), I'm sneezing like crazy and bunyi sok sek sok sek annoying gile sumpah xde sape nak dtg dekat. Tomorrow I've got one more test which is P freaking T to the E and I really hope I can survive the night. I hope you guys had a better day than I did. haa... haa... chum!. ughhhhhhhh
Yesterday, I was, today, I am, tomorrow, I will be beyond grateful towards Allah SWT for every thing He gives me. Wonderful, kind people around me, positivity all the way. These 'nikmat dunia' are what will help me go through the afterlife later. They make me want to change to a better person.
Guys, never ever take your loved ones for granted, you might regret it if you do. We'll never know what will happen, so keep this thought in your head through every minute of everyday, so you will remember not to.
When I was 16, I went on a date with this guy. It was my first time and he came to my house so we can ride the bus together. Yes, time tu sekolah lagi kan so what do you expect? Ok sambung.
After I salam-ed my mother and was about to go walk down the road (the bus stop was just behind my house), my mother said "Kalau jatuh, pandai-pandai bangun sendiri." I didn't know what she meant at the time. Me, being the doofus that I am, thought she meant the shoes that I was wearing, this 3-inch wedges. If I would fall, don't let him touch you by picking you up or something. I was puzzled for a second, and said "erm, okay. bye Ma."
Well, it was my first longest relationship, and the dumbest as well. I was far from being a mature 16-year old and so was he. So it ended. Even if it was dumb, I really did like the guy. Yelah, 16 and suka berangan and time-time sekolah. Cinta monyet/young love; everything appeared nice. Just appeared, it was not truly nice. But I wanted so bad for it to work so I was heartbroken. I wallowed for a while. A long period of 'while.'
Out of the blue, long after the 'while', the words of my mother from the first date suddenly came to me. At that moment, only then I understood clearly what she meant. I am on my own. I decided to be friends with this guy, so if he hurts me, I have to find ways to mend it myself, not depend on anyone else.
An unconventional way of teaching your daughter about independence and love, but I appreciate it. It worked. I'm turning 21, have gone through the most challenging of relationships, but I pulled through. With the help of only myself. (well, some good friends too but you know what I mean). Thanks Ma.
I have no idea why, but this line gets me every time.
Prof. Henry Higgins (to Eliza): Yes, you squashed cabbage leaf, you disgrace to the noble architecture of these columns, you incarnate insult to the English language, I could pass you off as the Queen of Sheba!
I know he was being mean to her, calling her a squashed cabbage leaf and all, but we don't get insults like that everyday do we? Maybe he was not your favourite character, but I think I fancy him quite a bit. hehe
"Lit, why are you doing this to me? I love you soo much. But you keep giving me these mixed signals that I don't understand. I thought we had this wonderful, mutual thing going on. Or was it just me? :("
Ok before you get your undies tied up in a bunch, Lit is actually short for literature. Perhaps you know that literature is one of my favourite subjects, perhaps you don't. Well, I love it to the extent that I love going to its classes too, Literature and Media and Literature in the ESL classroom. Between both, I prefer the former more even though the lecturer is so tough and strict in his marking, that he made me cry but my passion for the subject surpasses the fact that he made me cry. Well, yesterday class u4b took the second quiz and it was our last class for the semester. Alhamdulillah, I answered it with glee as the questions had been discussed earlier, both with Aina and Mr Kieran. And it actually saddens me to say bye bye to him and the three-hour dates Lit and I have watching movies and eating sweets and such.
Unfortunately today, my other Lit partner was not so lenient in his questions for me. He gave me only one hour and a half to answer 11 questions and he expected me to answer each question in one paragraph. 11 mucho hard, mind-boggling questions in just 90 minutes? Are you crazy? I applaud the other students who manage to think fast and answer all of the questions well. I was clearly not a fast thinker. My hope of getting an A seems really faraway and it also appears to be saying astalavista baby to me. Lit in Esl classroom or Litesl, you disappoint me. Why I ask you why? :((
But I don't blame you Lit. I know it's really me, not you. My love for you will never fade. You have my word. Till we meet again. kisseth and hugeth, Nashrah.
p.s: this is actually an attempt to cheer myself up. It kinda works.
True Blood is coming! True Blood is coming! This Thursday! At 10 p.m! At channel 412 on Astro! Yahoooo! My wish came true!
p.s: hopefully all my assignments will be done by then though.. p.p.s: it's been ages since I've watched Astro! how sad since I have it on all the time in this house. Guess I was really into those assignments hahaha.
Does it seem too far-fetched of me to say that I no longer believe in marriage? Or love or fairytales, even happy endings? I realize now that I don't. I might regret saying this in 5 years' time or heck, maybe in a mere six more months or so, but as for right now, I really don't. I'm not saying I'm turning into a feminist or against guys or anything; I love my guy friends. I'm sure there are gurreat guys out there (yep sarcasm alert here) and a lot of you girls will find yourself hopelessly in love with your own prince charming. I just don't believe in it anymore. Love that is.
Well, good luck gals. I'm off the love boat. for now.
"When everything is lonely I can be my own best friend
I get a coffee and the paper; have my own conversations With the sidewalk and the pigeons and my window reflection The mask I polish in the evening, by the morning looks like shit."
