maintaining my belief

because I miss too much.

Would love to go back in time when I was 15. When I had accidentally stumbled upon the sweet sounds of this man. Good times.

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Scrubs season 9

has James Franco's brother in it! Dave looks so much the same, with the smile and the hair, and his voice is similar too! He looks like a model out of some magazine. But of course, the big brother triumphs in my book ;)

Ain

My dearest, I didn't get to write your birthday post in November! But no sweat, 1st December will officially be your first 'real'' day as a 21-year old. Happy birthday my dear Ain :)

For the life of me, I can't really put my finger on exactly when we first talked, where we first met, and how we became friends. Maybe it was in Standard 4 or 5, in SKS9 Shah Alam, where I was new there, this timid girl all the way from PJ and the others had all made friends. We were in different crowds, but we definitely got to know each other eventually.

Fast forward to high school. We were still in different crowds, but our friendship blossomed. You were the girl with the cute smile, infectious giggle, and happy demeanor. You still are, hun, and I'm glad you hardly changed :)

We had every tuition class together and what tore you up or brought you down, concerned me too. All the ups and downs, of school, difficult subjects, friendships and yes, boys. And then we graduated, and up till now, I still call you my friend :)

21 is a big number; symbolizing maturity, wisdom and independence, and I believe you possess them all. Life will bring you down sometimes, but I know you can handle it breezily like you always do and you know you have me to count on :)

Friends for life. Happy 21st birthday Nurul Ain Jaflis!

<3

it's December

and I don't think I'm ready to embark on another month. I was happy in November. The feeling wasn't consistent I can assure you that, but it had its moments which I'm going to miss. December means Korea trip, result (!), Christmas, the year-end sale, and more profoundly the last month of 2009. It was just like yesterday when it was April, May, June up to August, October and now. Wow. Time really has flown fast. I will try my hardest to make this month pleasant enough for me to go through. Need to giddy up and hold on tight.

New Moon headache

I'm sorry but I just have to get this out of my system. Me and my sisters watched New Moon today, and to tell you the truth, I don't really know how to rate it and I did not truly 'experienced' the movie because a couple of reasons. First, halfway/two-thirds of the movie, my bladder was failing me, urging to go to the toilet so my concentration deteriorated a little bit (okay a lot) and I felt like kicking myself for not doing my business earlier. Second, immature audiences right behind my back. God, they annoyed the hell out of me. I was annoyed, yet I pitied them somehow for being so 'jakun mcm tak pernah tgk wayang, nak comment mcm2'. I mean, guys, you aren't the only ones in the freaking cinema lah.

So I have reasons to watch it again hee.


Okay actually what I wanted to tell/show you was,






Aaaaaaa I was so cair melting melting away seeing Jacob/ Taylor Lautner onscreen. He was so buff, so buff, my eyes were bulging out of its sockets. But I managed to keep it on the down low unlike my sister who kept stifling her giggles (failed miserably of course, but who can blame her?) and I had to keep shushing her when I was really feeling the same way hahahaha.

But I felt for him in the end when Bella said it had always been Edward (choice between Jacob and Edward). Oh my god woman I felt like choking you (or the scriptwriter. I can't believe I'm talking like this when really, I should know better, having read the four books and will know what will happen in the end and most of the time, movies adapted from books do not always live up to the books' standards anyway. Really, why am I like this I have no idea why.)

Seeing Bella having two guys after her. Being all cuddly with Jacob when she's cold and him offering her his warmth, oh man, that just did it for me. Maybe that's what made me, whoever I've become after watching New Moon, write this post because I cannot bear seeing Jacob, the buff, brooding werewolf got shunned by the girl because of a pale vampire who kept a pained look most of the time. I've become like one of the many girls out there. Nooooooo. I should be a cool, calm, and collected 21 year old when seeing younger boys/ heartthrobs onscreen. What is wrong with me?

Waaaa why am I talking like this? I'm influenced by the movie! I shouldn't beeeeeee.

I miss the feelings I had when I first read Twilight. When I literally dreamt of Edward (whoever I imagined at the time). When reading the book kept me smiling all day and weeks. When I couldn't even put it down because every page pulled me till the very end. When it wasn't known that much. When I thought it was just another good book I randomly picked because it was cheaper than "Does My Head Look Big In This?". When I didn't have the image of Robert Pattinson as Edward in my head ( I had a totally different outlook). When it was not so much hyped as it is now. When I actually lent it to several friends because I wanted to share what I felt with them.

Now, all of that have changed. Sigh. I really have to get back to reality.


Oh by the way, now I understand why it's 18SG. Kesian Sheen (my 12 year old sister) who had to cover her eyes during the kissing scenes.