running with scissors

OMG. Assalamualaikum. It's been a hot minute since I last visited this dusty blog! Truth be told, I'm here because of my students. Not UiTM students nor Geomatika, but ASIQS students (I don't think I have ever written about Geomatika though but oh well). Yes, last time I was here, I was in Kuala Pilah teaching fresh graduates English. Right now, I'm back in my hometown of Shah Alam, teaching high school kids; something I told myself I would not venture into. But that is Allah's current plan for me and I think it's alright. Still getting the hang of it, despite already being here for *coughs* 3 years *coughs*. My kids were assigned to create a blog on their own, and you bet your butt that every cell in my body perked up. Blogging? Writing online? What? That's what I love! Or loved, I'm not sure yet. What I know is, this move made by my colleague on them revived something in me that I had left far behind, but I feel like I am ready to embrace again. This was my space that I shared with friends, family, and anybody who actually liked reading the crap I posted. I feel like little old 23 year-old Nashrah again, writing about her wants and needs and thoughts and not caring what people think. But 7 years is a long time, and to be honest, not a lot of old me remains. I've changed quite a bit. 

I have a husband and a son now. Writing it here looks so bizarre when you compare it with my old posts of heartbreaks, longing, and wondering when will I ever get married. It's a small blow to the stomach BUT hilarious at the same time to think how innocent I was about the whole idea. I'm still learning about everything and anything, and living it as I go.

I still love literature, but academically, I did not survive. I guess you could say research isn't my forte. The whole debacle still brings me down (okay breaks my heart is more like it) but I have tried my best to move on. Physically was easy, mentally was not. My friends made it though, and I am extremely happy and proud of them. It just was not meant for me. Perhaps in the future, and in another field. 

Anyway, good things are coming, and I am excited. I just pray God grants me the strength to actually endure it, because there are lots on my plate right now. And that will be in another post, written at another time, possibly soon..or not. We shall see. Toodles!