fingers crossed

Assalamualaikum. It's been a while since I've written something here. I visit my blog every day actually, solely to check on my friends' updates and stare at my previous posts. I haven't felt so good about myself and others and even life of late to write something good to be read. But I feel like writing something tonight because, get this, I'm prepping my fingers and thoughts to write my own recommendation letter har har. I haven't written in a long time, and haven't been practicing too so Running With Scissors is a start. 

Recommendation letter for what you wonder? Well, I'm trying my luck in applying for a Masters degree in English Lit at IIUM. Why English Literature and not other courses? I love it and during the five years of my bachelor's degree, nothing has ever made me so happy and vibrant in class like Literature did. I beamed, I ooh-ed and aah-ed because the subject was wonderful and it made me feel alive. Yea, a wee bit of an exaggeration there but it is true. 

Why IIUM? My sister is currently studying there so I've had my fair share of visiting and observing the place. I honestly think it is interesting, totally different from UiTM and I feel like it has so much to offer me, to feed my hunger of...what I have missed and of life. And yes, I'm not getting any younger so to be placed in an Islamic-based institution can help me a lot in terms of putting and ensuring my feet and head are on the ground. 

So please make doa for me, hopefully I'll get accepted.

Oh I'm going back to Pilah next week. Something that I'm not looking forward to but I need to be paid and priceless experience need to be gained. Just three months and I'll be back in Shah Alam. *"Chinning" up.*


broken strings







"read this to me and I'll come back to you"


Watched The Notebook for the umpteenth time tonight and cried incessantly like always. Ryan and Rachel make their love story so real, that you can just feel the pain, the love. Just weeks ago, I watched Ryan in Crazy Stupid Love and he has changed tremendously. He's buffer and more handsome even. It's no surprise since The Notebook was released 7 years ago. And I still somehow have hope, though I know it won't happen, for Ryan and Rachel to get back together. The reason why the tearjerker movie struck a deep chord with me is because I've been in Allie's shoes. And it was no picnic. But that was then and I was young and dumb. Now I'm crazily, "smartly" in love.



work it



A week left before I leave for Pilah. Am I ready to go back? I have to. I want to. And because I CAN.



the object of my affection




"I want to look at you and not feel so hurt by you." 

- Nina in The Object of My Affection


last goodbye




"Oh you know what makes me so angry?
Because I know that in time, I'll only make you cry
This is our last goodbye."

from Glamour.co.uk








Some of the looks I picked. I'd totally wear these.