I thought

This was written last Friday.

Respect. A lot of people say it should be earned, not easily given. I agree.

But when it comes to cases like learning in class and listen to your teacher/ lecturer or even parents, you would just instantly, without thinking or analyze any aspect, respect. Other than the obvious reasons of them being older and are more experienced than you, students/ children should respect because they will earn "barakah" in their lessons and life. However, today I didn't get it. Respect that is.

I was a student before, and I've gone through probably the same stuff my students are going through now so I know all the "virus entered my pendrive and deleted all the files", "I forgot to make a copy of the slides in my pendrive", yadayada excuses. So you think you can kid me now? It's so blatant that sometimes they can leave my jaw hanging and they still wouldn't blink. 

I remembered how scared we were back then, if we got to class later than the lecturer and we were to present first that day. Like shit scared, pee in my pants kinda scared. Now, it is apparently the lecturer's job to turn on the computer, call the students countless times and then only they'd go to the front.

I'm not saying students should easily give respect even if their teachers/ lecturers treat them poorly. That's just wrong. However, people who know me would know that I hate confrontations, hate getting angry and tensed so from the get-go, I'd said to myself that I wouldn't give my students a hard time and make the lesson fun and easy going, because English is supposed to be so and if I were a student, I'd want my lecturer to do the same.

So at first I gave them the shrug, act like I didn't care. But then it got ugly and I felt like a total pushover, so my face became strained, then out went my potty mouth expressing the anger and annoyance I felt. Then I breezed out of class. Note breezed, not stormed.



First dramatic exit I have ever done so far. Hope there won't be any in the future.



p.s: My students are scared of me now. Good.

4 tissues:

ayunimadarina said...

hahaa.

nashy baby is so comel!

good luck teaching sayang!

do not give up, they'll surely love you .

: )

zawani badri said...

i must say that dramatic exit works :) but only applicable once in a blue moon :)

Azie Nazri said...

I feel you. I too find it baffling that a student could be so.. ignorant. I mean, respect shouldnt have to be taught and asked for. It's just simply natural to respect a teacher. *sigh*

Anyway, since they're young adults, I prefer explaining the real situation and tell them what I feel(how disappointed I am) so that unwanted incidents wouldnt happen again. And it has worked so far, alhamdulillah.

Oh, and being garang once in a while do work sometimes too.

You'll be okay. I know you have it in you. And selamat berpuasa Nashrah! Have a safe journey home this weekend. May your Atuk recover soon. Amin.

p/s: I miss Shah Alam too!

Nashrah Khan said...

Teddy, thanks syg heee! :)

Wani, yes definitely. dia tak boleh all the time, students dah tak peduli nnt hehe

Azie, thank you! yea i've never raised my voice, only say words that will mkn dlm u know? i find them understanding my situation too, but then they are young so they forget :p slmt berpuasa to u too Azie :) thank you!