4:05 PM
achoo-ed by
Nashrah Khan
- I just ate two sticks of Kitkat Fit brought to the office. Thank God, or else I'd be so cranky (because of hunger), she'd be annoyed.
- Just sent Yana to the bus station. She's already in Seremban and on her way back to Nilai as I type.
- Just brought Fit to the KP driving school. Registered and now roaring to start getting her license.
- It's now the mid semester break so the campus is so quiet, except for the occasional phone rings, chattering, doors creaking.
- I'll be going back to Shah Alam tomorrow. We PTFT lecturers only get about 7 days per semester, so we only applied for two days of holiday this time and the remaining days will be used during Raya break. How sad right.
- A lot of things are running through my head. Masters, my position here, jobs in other sectors; basically everything concerning my future. Why do I feel like everything is moving so fast that I could barely grip anything in sight?
- Masters in TESL or Masters in English Lit or Masters in Applied Linguistics? Each of the courses sounds so interesting and promising.
- Next question, UIA or UPM? Yana and Fit are registering for the latter.
- My BEL coordinator advised us to obtain our Masters at least in 3 years' time. I'll be 26 by then and at the time, I might want to think of settling down so gotta start now right? Right?
- Coursework or research?
- I haven't received my first pay. So many things on my to-buy list. Not good, not good.
- I have been here a month. Set foot here on June 20th. Time really flies nowadays.
- I kinda miss my students. Okay fine, I miss them, no kinda.
- No no, I must not get attached.
- Because I may not be a lecturer forever right?
- Maybe for another semester? Or maybe not.
- That's another mind-boggling question I have.
- This job at first was only deemed to be temporary; I was merely testing the waters, but now it seems like it's connected to so many things that can possibly give me a promising future. Apply for Masters, become an expert in whatever it is I'll take, then become a full-time lecturer then get a rise in pay then I might get transferred to the Shah Alam campus which is so much nearer to my house.
- All of that sound so good but is this really what I want? What about my dream to write articles? To travel? Should I do both? Or not?
- By now, you'd probably know how crazy my mind is.
- My housemates/ colleagues/ crazy friends seem to know what they want so easily and I'm still here hanging and wondering and deciding and praying.
- I have to see and ask people who have more knowledge in this. Maybe my beloved lecturers back in SA.
- Yep, maybe..
- Okay I'm out. Got to mark some essays. I've already written two "please see me after class" notes because of their "perfect" writing that doesn't even make sense. And Fit's watching MatLuthfi's videos. She's laughing her head off. I want to go join. Bye bye.
3 tissues:
I thought you wanted to pursue your postgraduate studies in the UK?
there r so many things going on in ur life nashrah...i wish mine is too :(
haha..faham2..same here.. :)
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