running with scissors

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(This is a scene from the movie "Elizabethtown" btw)

Really sad isn't it? Though it's true, it doesn't mean I don't hang out with my friends and family or even enjoy their company. Oh I do, very much at that. To go to the gym, to have breakfast with, to accompany me to find that clothing item I've been coveting, any activity that you can think of, will be enjoyed with another. It's just that, I sometimes prefer to be alone. Why? Because.. I think I'm just a plain homebody who likes being cooped up in her room. 

But I know I shouldn't go on with this. An ustaz on the telly once said (during those Forum Perdana events I think) that being alone will cause a lot of "problems" on oneself. Problems here meaning the involvement of the devil. Because they just plain hate us humans, specifically kaum Adam and Hawa, and had long been vengeful, the devil(s) is/are always around to whisper things in your ear, asking you to do all sorts of bad things that are up their sleeve. To weaken your iman is their main agenda. Thus, it's better to be with someone rather than being alone. Shamefully I admit, this should probably explain why I perform my prayers mostly at the last minute now..

p.s: Do you guys watch Ahmad Durrah? A not-so-new drama which airs Friday nights on TV3? Well, I happen to watch it with my Atuk and the plot interests me because it has similarities with Nur Kasih. (Remember that show? Oh I bet you do). Well, in this show, two girls (best friends) have their eyes on one guy, whereas in Nur Kasih, two brothers want the same girl. Get it? So dramatic right? Anyway, in last night's episode, Ahmad Durrah was sort of sermonizing in the surau of this village. The reason I said "sort of" is because in the story, he's just a regular guy, not a trained preacher/ ustaz. Okay, instead of telling the do's and don'ts, what's right and wrong to the jemaah, he tells them of his past experiences of being a really bad Muslim and that he still considers himself as one, though he has changed for the better. This shows genuineness and people in general, love stories and can remember them better than facts. An effective way right? 

Okay my purpose of relating Ahmad Durrah to this post is to show you me.  The bad side of loving being alone too much to the point that it causes me more harm than good so that you can learn not to be the same way too (delaying my prayers). I'm not preaching or anything, I just wanted to show you guys a real-life bad case of being alone. I really do hope you get this. I sort of blab-type a lot.  

Okay see you in the next post! I'm missing Maghrib!