running with scissors

I miss writing regularly in this blog of mine. But lately, I can't think straight or I just don't know what to write about. I'm only good at thinking, and fail miserably to transfer it on to something readable. There's 9 more days until practicum and honestly, I have done nothing to prepare myself for it. I have only been reading Frank McCourt's "Teacher Man" and doing some freelance writing for a kid's magazine. Other than that, I'd be updating myself with Glee episodes and I'd just watched the finale just now, and movies online. I think I'm not in a very happy state. Maybe that is why my blog has only posts on songs or videos. Because I don't want to show this side of me, which I have vulnerably shown in previous posts before. I realized that I show too much, and though I stand by the saying "heart on my sleeve", through experience I've come to a conclusion that blogs are not the place for you to vent or let people know how you feel. Happy posts, events, mediocre updates, songs are among of what I have in mind for "running with scissors". Other than those categories will fall into my other blog, which I've set to be for my eyes only. But don't get me wrong here. People who share their life stories, every detail of their day or week, have my respect. And please don't stop either, because I just love to read them! Just ignore me, I am paranoid and a chicken. 

And because of the lack of updates that I have, I tend to steer away from Blogger and settle comfortably in Tumblr. My reason is simple. Tumblr is mostly to share and reblog pictures that inspire you, that touch you, that you can relate to. Although some people do treat it like a blog, I treat it like it's my inspiration board, and everyday I crave for more pictures on animations, typography, sayings, fashion and they make me happy. It hardly requires thinking, and it relaxes me. Sounds like some sort of therapy huh? I guess it kinda is. So if you want to find me (perasan), find me there.

Oh and is it just me, or Facebook is getting less and less interesting these days? I log in everyday and see my friends' updates and a cornucopia of groups that sometimes make me laugh and some are just awfully ridiculous, and... that's it. Log out. Maybe I need something new. Something more challenging. Maybe it's me who gets bored easily..

And yeah, tomorrow's the day. D-DAY. For UiTM students at least. I try so hard not to think about it, but the thought of it erased a smile off my face and replaced it with a straight line, and kept me weary the whole day. I wanted to snap out of it, but I didn't have anything to motivate me and poke the bubble I was in. Now I'm feeling better Alhamdulillah, probably because of the dinner I just ate. Why does food always have to be the answer to my every sorrow? Gahh.

Didn't I just type that I didn't want to share so much? So what is up with me babbling about my miserable day? Sheesh cakap tak serupa bikin. See ya'll later. All the best my lovely teslians :*