you only turn 21 once
Ever since I heard this song, I thought "Man, I can't wait for my 21st birthday so I can really sing and feel the song." That was about what, 5 years ago? Well, I got my wish now.
Some days go by, I wish I was famous
or maybe religious, so I could go to heaven
just like you
I can have a big house, complain about taxes
payoff my ex'es, ain't that living
no one makes fun of me, cause I
can't stand up for myself
woah, 21 and invincible
woah, can't wait to screw this up
and woah, 21 and invincible
I'm in power for the hour
guess today's gonna blow us away
I've got a girlfriend
she tells me she needs me
and she loves me
we'll probably get married
oh no, and everyone will bite their
tongues so hard they'll bleed
When mom hears this song
She'll tell me I'm crazy
and she'll say to me
"Son you're much too young, go have
some fun, don't waste your youth
like I did"
and woah, 21 and invincible
woah, can't wait to screw this up
and woah, 21 and invincible
I'm in power for the hour
I guess today's gonna blow us away
and it's been autumn since the day that I met you
if I had bottomed, I'd crawl out alone
and I don't wish you know the
secrets of summer at all
and woah, 21 and invincible
woah, can't wait to screw this up
and woah, 21 and invincible
I'm in power for the hour
I guess today's gonna blow us away
or maybe religious, so I could go to heaven
just like you
I can have a big house, complain about taxes
payoff my ex'es, ain't that living
no one makes fun of me, cause I
can't stand up for myself
woah, 21 and invincible
woah, can't wait to screw this up
and woah, 21 and invincible
I'm in power for the hour
guess today's gonna blow us away
I've got a girlfriend
she tells me she needs me
and she loves me
we'll probably get married
oh no, and everyone will bite their
tongues so hard they'll bleed
When mom hears this song
She'll tell me I'm crazy
and she'll say to me
"Son you're much too young, go have
some fun, don't waste your youth
like I did"
and woah, 21 and invincible
woah, can't wait to screw this up
and woah, 21 and invincible
I'm in power for the hour
I guess today's gonna blow us away
and it's been autumn since the day that I met you
if I had bottomed, I'd crawl out alone
and I don't wish you know the
secrets of summer at all
and woah, 21 and invincible
woah, can't wait to screw this up
and woah, 21 and invincible
I'm in power for the hour
I guess today's gonna blow us away
-Something Corporate, "21 and Invincible"
Well, the character in the song is obviously a male, but you know what I mean and where I'm getting right? Okay that's enough for me. And of course, I don't feel invincible or want to screw anything up on my birthday. I just felt like putting the song here. I am grateful I'm still here, alive and mostly kicking, still receiving God's gift of breathing and continuing my purpose in this world. Do I feel 21? As a matter of fact, I kinda do. I have more responsibilities now, like to my country. Am eligible to vote and also enter clubs, which of course I don't intend to do. Not only that, I have my family and studies. A 21-year old pursuing a degree means you're a few semesters away to graduate. Though it has hit me that I only got 3 semesters to go, it didn't quite hit me in the gut until today when a junior greeted me and said "Hi Kak Nashrah." Kakak? Kakak? Oh man, you're my junior, just a junior, you can't be that young. Eh wait, you're my junior, that means I'm a senior now. And that bummed me out big time.
Even though it can be a drag to go to class and finish up all the assignments, I am not ready to leave my studies just yet. I am not ready to graduate. But reality check; whether I like it or not, I am growing up, older by the minute, so I have to take this all in with or without force, whichever way I like.
And this year's birthday is definitely different from the last. I think I saw things differently then, than the way I see things now. Frankly, it's clearer but not escaping a few glitches here and there. Nenek is not around to wish me happy birthday anymore. And Ramadhan is a day away and to tell you the truth, I've been waiting for this holy month. I remember last year I worry I wouldn't reach it but Alhamdulillah I'm still here. But this year's will be different. No more fasting together with her, no more celebrating raya with her, no more raya prayers with her, no more asking for forgiveness from her. I can feel this Ramadhan will be a meaningful but emotional one. I really wish I could hop off the emotional train for awhile, but this is what I meant by responsibilities. Maturity plays a part and although I wish I could go back in time and be a kid again, I can't. I've had moments where I really thought I could embrace this, this newfound maturity and I know I can. I just don't want to.
Okay, it's 1.57 a.m and I think I have babbled nonsensical sentences here. Perhaps the best thing to do is to sleep. Which I will do in 3, 2, 1... good night! ;)
Even though it can be a drag to go to class and finish up all the assignments, I am not ready to leave my studies just yet. I am not ready to graduate. But reality check; whether I like it or not, I am growing up, older by the minute, so I have to take this all in with or without force, whichever way I like.
And this year's birthday is definitely different from the last. I think I saw things differently then, than the way I see things now. Frankly, it's clearer but not escaping a few glitches here and there. Nenek is not around to wish me happy birthday anymore. And Ramadhan is a day away and to tell you the truth, I've been waiting for this holy month. I remember last year I worry I wouldn't reach it but Alhamdulillah I'm still here. But this year's will be different. No more fasting together with her, no more celebrating raya with her, no more raya prayers with her, no more asking for forgiveness from her. I can feel this Ramadhan will be a meaningful but emotional one. I really wish I could hop off the emotional train for awhile, but this is what I meant by responsibilities. Maturity plays a part and although I wish I could go back in time and be a kid again, I can't. I've had moments where I really thought I could embrace this, this newfound maturity and I know I can. I just don't want to.
Okay, it's 1.57 a.m and I think I have babbled nonsensical sentences here. Perhaps the best thing to do is to sleep. Which I will do in 3, 2, 1... good night! ;)
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4 tissues:
happy birthday dear nashrah..
*hehe, sweet dreams
selamat hari lahir sayang.
:)
nash! i feel de same too..about growing up..:(
hajar, thank u so much :) :)
teddy, aww thank u syg :)
eeja, huhu kan? bile dah 21 ni, sgt terase. next yr dah 22. no more playing arnd anymore :/
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