running with scissors: you know what?

you know what?

10:53 PM achoo-ed by Nashrah Khan

At first, I privatized my blog because I realized I've written wayy too private entries and people can easily read and understand what I was writing about and then talk. But that was entirely my fault for not being discreet enough. I had the this-is-my-blog-so-I-can-write-anything-I-want idea in my head but I guess I wasn't so brave enough to actually make it happen. But then the unthinkable happened. Or rather, I had expected for something like this to happen. And I got mad. Really mad. Not too mention hurt. Tremendously hurt. Cooled down a bit though but I won't forget. And then it hit me. Orang ckp belakang means they hide the things they really think and do but in front of everyone they pretend to be nice. In other words, mereka hipokrit.

And me here, writing vengeful-like entries in a private blog kinda makes me almost equivalent to them. That is the last position I want to be in. In the shoes of a hypocrite. Thus, Hence, Jadi, I'm going to un-privatized my blog. Jika mereka (anyone you want it to be, or you can just perasan) baca, then bagus. At least, I know I'm being truthful and just. But this is not a way to membalas dendam or anything. I'm just doing what my heart says to do and this is it. So you know what, I malas nak kisah dah apa orang fikir. Me, God, my friends and family know who how I really am and that is more than enough for me.

Ok this is by far, the most rojak entry I've ever written. I'm sorry!