i hope you hear me here wherever you are
I miss you more today. It's crazy to think you're gone. Everything seems almost normal when it actually isn't. I don't cry so much anymore; only when I'm truly sad and feel lost and all I could think about was you. Keep calling out your name sometimes. In silence, out loud, in my prayers, in any way I like. Mostly uttered out of sadness. But it will turn to a feeling of hopelessness so I thought I might just as well stop. Makes me more depressed. Oh did I tell you despite loving literature, it irks me to read poems on grandmothers? Not because I hate it, it just reminds me of you. That makes me sad. But it's ok, at least I'm learning. Atuk's not feeling so well. Been coughing a few days now. I remembered your cough. Yes, as weird as it sounds ,I do. Because it happened a few weeks before I stopped hearing your voice. I'll try to remember more lovable things about you other than your cough. If you were here, a soft punch would have landed on my nose hehe. But then I wouldn't care. You can punch me all you want, as long as I can still feel your touch. But it's ok too. Allah loves you more than I do. I love you Nek. Rest well. Al-Fatihah.
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3 tissues:
I know how you feel.
I hope you're alright.
And about that, well let's just say
some people don't appreciate what Uncle Ajam does to keep them alive and well.
Kak Sha,
please don't tell Uncle Long or anyone else about it.
I rather not make my dad feel worse. :(
yada..yada :)
eecha, thanks im doing fine :) hmm i can understand that. u just have to be patient. mayb they'll realize it sooner or later. hope ur dad's ok tho. oh ill keep my lips sealed! promise :)
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