just keep me where the light is
When you're dreaming with a broken heart
The waking up is the hardest part
You roll outta bed and down on your knees
And for the moment you can hardly breathe
Wondering was she really here?
Is she standing in my room?
No she's not, 'cause she's gone, gone, gone, gone, gone....
-John Mayer, "Dreaming with a Broken Heart"
I had a dream of her last night. A first since she went. It wasn't creepy or magical like what people expect. It was ordinary yet special. I had to write this down somewhere cause I'm afraid I won't have dreams of her anymore in the future.
She was sitting in her chair and had a glum look on her face. I remember feeling shocked to see her there. It was so real and vivid that I cried. I went and sat down by her lap. I called for her but she couldn't hear me. I touched her but she didn't even move. It's as if I'm the one who's gone and she is still here. I screamed and screamed and I think the volume of my voice was so loud that she winced like she heard someone calling for her. She looked around everywhere, every corner, but never at my direction. I was just by her lap, nowhere far that she couldn't hear me. Then I saw my sister and called for her frantically to come and see Nenek. "Kak No, Kak No, tengok nenek ada kat sini! Tapi dia tak dgr. Camne ni? Camne ni?" I said while crying like a crazy person. My grandma just sat there with no expression, as if she was posing for a portrait. And that was it.
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that's deep.
seriously.
uhuh. agree with taufik.
hmm nashrah, im not sure if this is true or not.
but ppl say when u have dreams of arwahs, and they dont say anything in the dream, then its actually their real spirits.
but if they talk, then its just syaitan.
moga Allah swt tempatkan nenek nashrah bersama orang beriman.
amiiin.
:)
yeah ive heard abt it from nadia so i regard this dream as just a dream. maybe i miss her too much that it led to me dreaming abt her. i try not to think abt it so much. in a way, and i dont know if this is good or not, but i feel a tiny bit of happiness because i get to see her in my dreams. im tired of seeing pictures. i just wanted to see some movement, some motion from her. tp kalau syaitan yg wat, masyaallah, i wont dwell on it so much. thanks guys :)
u knw wat,i had a dream of my cousin Haseenah, the one who passed away in the landslide the night after she passed away.it seemed so real,she just smiled at me.having that dream made me feel a whole lot better.from that moment on,i truly believe she is now in a much happier place:)
-aina
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