angels
i didn't have much fun today. today, i felt like a felon committing something so bad i feel like turning back time. i didn't sleep with my Grandma last night. i should've.
she was terribly sick :(
so i tried to make amends by taking care of her the whole day. put drama assignment, japanese and educational psychology aside, i sat on the chair, occasionally dozing off cause i watched her from subuh. she looked so weak and frail. several times she would wake up and ask for a drink or that she wanted to vomit. for the first time, i didn't scrunch up my face or ran away at the sight of someone vomiting. i didn't feel anything. i just kept rubbing her back, trying to ease the pain.
you see, i've lived all my life with my grandparents. my family lives with them. so our bond is close. i love what i have. i cherish it every day. as i grow up, i try not to hurt their feelings as they're the ones who gave me shelter, food, everything actually. even after class, when my friends ask me whether i want to go buy food at the Makcik Longkang, (dia tak kotor tau! just stall dia kat longkang. makanan dia sgt sedap. pls don't get me wrong) i would feel guilty knowing my Grandma is waiting for me to eat with her.
i eat a lot. more than i should. more than a girl should. 2,3 helpings at a time. but she loves it. she loves the fact that i'm not starving and seeing me eat like that, makes her want to eat more too. selera. i make her happy. the fact that i make her happy makes me happy triple the amount of her happiness. sayang sgt.
she had never been this sick. even she said so. she talked though, well muttered words we couldn't understand. me and my mother exchanged looks. "She's a bit delirious. pening kan."
"Tu la," i said, with a poker face when actually i felt sad. i hope she'll talk normally when she gets better nanti.
the funny thing is, well not so funny, my Grandpa is sick too. i guess they are soulmates. or the fact that they sleep together in the same room and berjangkit. duhh nashrah.
my Grandpa was diagnosed with pneumonia on Tues. he had been coughing nonstop and had a fever. he's getting better Alhamdulillah. but i received news today that he has dengue. aiyayai. pelik sgt. my Grandma was admitted this afternoon. i felt sad about sending her to the hospital, knowing that i can't watch over her. i want to, but exam's not over. wish they are.
now both my grandparents are in the same room, both sick and weak. i am worried, can't deny that. they're in the same condition they were before. i can't think straight but i'll try my best to study, or at least do the drama assignment. i know Allah will help them both, not instantly but insyaAllah gradually.
tomodachis, if your loved ones are sick or not in a good condition, take really good care of them. do it wholeheartedly and sincerely. remember they have had done something good for you, now is the time for you to do something for them. don't neglect or think "haish menyusahkan je org tua ni". dosanya sgt besar. i don't know what exactly you will get for doing that but i know heaven will not be the place for you.
pray for them yeah? they're my angels. domo arigato.
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Dont worry my friend...it'll turn out fine...insya Allah...my prayers go out to them and to u as well...stay strong...and may Allah SWT bless u for having such a caring heart...ur grandparents are sure lucky!... 8)
nashrah, just to make u feel better.
theres a hadith that says whoever who goes ziarah ppl who are sick, they'll be in Allah's rahmat. and whoever who stays with ppl who are sick will be drowned with Allah's rahmat.
and what will those who are sick get?
their sins will be forgiven. :)
may ur granparents get well soon.
ameen.
semoga ur grandparents cepat sembuh.
sayang, i hope ur angels will recover soon! :)
nash, be strong k?
insyallah they will be fine :)
Nashrah,
sorry to hear, but be strong..
I think I get what you feel cause I grow up with my TokPah too..
If you need anything, I am here..
we are all here..
okay?
Prayers for Nashrah's Gramps..
hey. I was always my grandparents' baby girl. to say I really understand how you're feeling would be an understatement, but I do. both of them have already left me, grandma few months ago. long as I could, insyaAllah they'll always be in my prayers. and you should do that too, now & always. don't you worry, they'll be okay ;)
hee just wanna share with you something. nanti I message at your facebook ya.
hmm..
sorry to hear that, nash.
pray for them to get well soon, k?
Keep your head in your study, and I'Allah everything will turn to be just fine. InsyaAllah.
I feel u nash..
My grandma was the one who raised me..fed me..took care of me since I was little..
and up till now..
she is still looking after me..
n yes..she's not that healthy also lately..
since I went back for the last raya..
just hold on there nashy..
they'll be alrite..
sheikh: thank u very much. i really appreciate it :)
azie: oh i think i've heard it before. then Alhamdulillah :) really happy to hear that. thank u azie.
safwan: thank u mr belated bday boy hehe
teddy: thank u syg :)
wanie: yes ill try. thank u wanie :)
fiqa: thank u fiqa :) ill definitely ring u up if i need a friend :)
shaza: thank u very much shaza :) really sorry abt ur grandparents. yes, they will always be in my prayers every time. oh u hv smtg for me? ill check it out, thanks :)
moja: thank u moja :) yes i most definitely will. ill try to study tho it can be distracting :/
acad: oh we're in the same boat. my mum used to work so my grandma became my temporary mother hehe. really sorry abt ur grandma. i bet she'll get better. ill pray for her as well. thank u :)
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