running with scissors

for the last couple of weeks or maybe a month or so, i was no longer interested in buying things. for the longest time i could remember, i haven't had the intention to check out the newest clothes or bags at Dorothy Perkins, shoes at Vincci, the cds at a music store, new books at MPH; i can't even remember the last time i entered a shopping mall. (SA mall and SACC don't count as there are not much there. :P) it's like my nafsu towards these materialistic stuff is gone. *gasp*

i don't get the feeling of excitement anymore when i see clothes or shoes or bags. maybe this is just a phase i'm going through or maybe the lack of moolah to spend or maybe i just don't go out much. oh pls God, let this be just a phase. i mean, i'm a normal 20-year old girl. right now, most girls my age are crazy about new things or vintage or retro or anything you like to call it. hundreds and hundreds of people are going to Bijou Bazaar on the weekends, at The Curve's flea market, to OU, to Sunway, to Mid, to Pavillion, to KLCC, to the many, many shopping malls Malaysia has.

so, during BEL test just now, i did an intervention. on myself.

since it was a two-hour paper and it was not that hard, i had time to berangan. oh yes, my specialty. i made a list in my head of the things that i wish i could have or buy.

The things that I wish I could have or buy list:

1. maybe a pair of pants or shirt or belt or anything from Rachel Bilson's line, Edie Rose
2. any piece of clothing from Mary-Kate and Ashley's line, The Row or Elizabeth and James
   
3. a pair of snuggly, comfy bootcut jeans that fit me just right.
4. a pair of snuggly, comfy skinny jeans that fit me just right
5. white skinny jeans
6. blue skinny jeans
   
7. a pair of Rayban wayfarer, preferably in red
8. nice wedges
9. a Matt Costa cd (kita kena support original) ok such a hypocritical line coming from me.
   
10. the latest Jack Johnson cd
11. a black and red chequered shirt
12. a new pair of curduroy Chuck Taylors. i've been wearing mine since i was 14. just imagine how it is now.
13. a nice bag, like the bag Mary is selling. (oh yes ppl, Mary tgh jual barang skrg. cari dia kalau nak baju or bag ok?)
14. a new pair of flats.
15. a nice white button-down shirt
16. a pair of khaki trousers. asyik pakai jeans je.
17. a nice haircut, maybe something like Anne Hathaway's current 'do
18. a nice massage. (poyo je)
19. Rachel Bilson as my best friend and her stylist as my stylist
20. a pair of nice Keds shoes
21. new underwear
22. a Fish Spa treatment. (tapi mahal sgt!)
23. any toy from Toys'R'Us
24. a trip to Mid's MPH or Borders or Kinokuniya (so i can be in my element again. ya Allah poyonyee)
25. a trip to the movies
26. ice cream M'sia
27. Baskin's banana split
28. air oren, air sirap, air mango, air ..

dah dah cukup la tu!

ok did my little intervention work? a little. i'm not fully myself yet, but these things take time.

i'll be ok. :)



(mcm kes berat je.)