ice cream couldn't fix it anymore
remember the time when you were little, and every scratch, every scolding, every fall would be fixed by an ice-cream treat? maybe it's different for you but it was like that for me back then. the taste of any ice-cream from baskin's in my mouth was like heaven and it was as if every other thing in the world didn't matter and they melted away like ice-cream of a cone.
even as i grew up, it became my comfort. oh thank God for not making me have extra baggage after all those treats! ice-cream was the easiest yet most effective way to calm me down if i had any extra weight on my shoulders.
thank God again i haven't had any serious problems surrounding my life now. but my friend did and being more listener than advice-giver, i couldn't think of any words to say to provide comfort to wash all those worries away. his meltdowns were mine and each word concerning them that was uttered turned into tears for me. how can you stay still when a friend is hurt so badly? i could only try hard to muffle my voice by putting my hand over my mouth to not let him know how weak i was and pretended to be strong so he could be strong as well.
then i had my saviour. oh ice-cream! let me treat you some, i said.
ice-cream? ice-cream doesn't fix this. it is more than ice-cream Nashrah, he said with a shook of his head and a look that had a hint of annoyance.
oh.
i'm sorry. i just thought..well..ice-cream.. you know..
my head dropped down and my eyes started to well up and my lips started to tremble like i was a little girl and someone took my doll away from me.
my saviour couldn't save someone else. he's right. it's more than ice-cream.
only the feeling of utter helplessness overwhelmed me at the time. didn't know that it was this hard.
so i can only hope and pray for his happiness. it's hard to be so close and share the same feelings like we're one person.
for the first time, ice-cream couldn't fix the situation anymore. ice-cream couldn't fix me.
even as i grew up, it became my comfort. oh thank God for not making me have extra baggage after all those treats! ice-cream was the easiest yet most effective way to calm me down if i had any extra weight on my shoulders.
thank God again i haven't had any serious problems surrounding my life now. but my friend did and being more listener than advice-giver, i couldn't think of any words to say to provide comfort to wash all those worries away. his meltdowns were mine and each word concerning them that was uttered turned into tears for me. how can you stay still when a friend is hurt so badly? i could only try hard to muffle my voice by putting my hand over my mouth to not let him know how weak i was and pretended to be strong so he could be strong as well.
then i had my saviour. oh ice-cream! let me treat you some, i said.
ice-cream? ice-cream doesn't fix this. it is more than ice-cream Nashrah, he said with a shook of his head and a look that had a hint of annoyance.
oh.
i'm sorry. i just thought..well..ice-cream.. you know..
my head dropped down and my eyes started to well up and my lips started to tremble like i was a little girl and someone took my doll away from me.
my saviour couldn't save someone else. he's right. it's more than ice-cream.
only the feeling of utter helplessness overwhelmed me at the time. didn't know that it was this hard.
so i can only hope and pray for his happiness. it's hard to be so close and share the same feelings like we're one person.
for the first time, ice-cream couldn't fix the situation anymore. ice-cream couldn't fix me.
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5 tissues:
yea.. I know how it feels..
unable to do anything and helplessly watching someone we care for battle his own feelings alone..
sad..
but nashy, do not YOU be so down..
Let him know you are there..
If he needs you, just be there..
There's nothing much you can do if he doesn't want you to..right?
Patience
Pray
Nash,
stuck in a situation where we can just look and see our friend's tribulations eating them up is tormenting..
it's devouring us up too..slowly..
but yes..the least we could do is stay strong and always be there to listen and ease their burden..
bout the ice-cream thingy..chocolate is my lifetime saviour..
wuhuuu!!!
care for some ice cream and chocolate treat??
lets go!
haha
weyhh....
i'm no good in giving advice, but i think the ice cream idea is cool. Hahaha. Eventho I'm not into ice-creams, of I had problems and have someone like you that trying to ease and grease things up, it's more than enough to cheeer me up again.
don't be so harsh on yourself.
I try not to be selfish, but I believe take a good yourself FIRST then only, the others.
:)
(I know, I'm soothing things up here. I need to watch more Oprah. Damn)
to fiqa,
i know. i try to let him know that im there but u know, since im an ice cream monster and all, sedih skit bile dier tolak my ice cream treat :/
dier rugi.hmph.hehe
to acad,
yes i try to be strong but being a girl and all, susah tau. all i can do is listen. tp xpe, i have big ears :D
oh jom! bile buke same2 ke or bile dah hbs puase ke:D
to moja,
haa cool kan cheering up ppl with ice cream? its my favourite past time. so whenever ur sad, u know who to call to get free ice cream hehe. btul2, i do take care of myself but xthn tgk org sedih. haha xpe, ur good already :)
feel ya there.
guess its the way it melts in your mouth and cools all the way to your heart.
so mebe ice cream didnt work.
how bout chocolate?
or a lolipop?
hehe sorrryy if im being insensitive.
saja nak buat lawak tak jadi. :p
vanilla is my remedy.
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