Don't you just love it when out of the blue, whilst trying on a pair of old jeans and tucking at its pockets, a RM5 note will just fall out? You have never known it is there all along. Free free je dapat. It feels good doesn't it? A simple discovery like this makes my day whee :)
Sometimes you just have to let go of certain things. Of past baggage that keeps hovering on your head time after time.
Sometimes you just have to take one little step, forward never backwards, out of the tiny bubble you've been hiding yourself in and see the world, really see it for once.
Sometimes you just have to get out, out of the problems, the feeling of guilt, the period of grieving, the fear you've created on yourself, and escape once you see that window of opportunity. It seldom comes so it's now or never.
Sometimes you just gotta be brave. Take that leap of faith. If you find yourself leaping wholeheartedly, that is when I think, you will really find the happiness you've been looking for.
"Do not waste this evening, baby I'm begging you Your big imagination's playing its tricks on you If you think my up and leaving's something I'm gonna do Feel my chest when I look at you"
Everyday I never fail to have sweet music ringing in my ears. I can't help myself; it is my life. So while lounging around the house doing basically nothing but eat, I've thought of some songs that fall under the category of 'songs that make me blush/swoon.' This is strictly for fun and saje-saje. I'm bored people.
"Crash Into Me" by Dave Matthews Band
"Lover I Don't Have to Love" by Bright Eyes
"Butterfly" by Jason Mraz
"Supermassive Black Hole" by Muse
"Crush" by Dave Matthews Band
"Banana Pancakes" by Jack Johnson
"Kissing You" by Des'ree
"Fever" by Michael Buble
"At Last" by Etta James
"So Close" by Jon McLaughlin
"Loving You" by Paolo Nutini
"Lost Without You" by Robin Thicke
"All of These Things" by Harry Connick Jr.
"Only Heart" by John Mayer
"Brown Skin" by India Arie
"Diary" by Alicia Keys
"I Want You" by Rachael Yamagata
"Love Remains the Same" by Gavin Rossdale
"Fell In Love with A Boy" by Joss Stone
"Everybody Here Wants You" by Jeff Buckley
"1,2,3,4" by Plain White T's
ok I think that is enough. hopefully it can make you blush or swoon like I do.
Sigh, she went away yesterday. As much as she likes to annoy me and squeeze my cheeks till I can't speak at home and in public and update me with all the antics DBSK and Superjunior pull off, I think I'm going to miss all that. And yes, that crazy but infectious laugh too. I don't think I ever did congratulate you enough for making it; entering a well-established university with the course of your choice and deserving it too. The road on getting it was hard; the system that uni has, has really got to change, and Mama and your struggle to get it. Like they say, hard work pays off and I'm really happy for you. Sure, orientation week is not so pleasant, maybe for certain people yes, though I hated mine, but it's all part of life. And it's only going to be for a week so you'll survive hehe. Plus I'm not worried, because I know you can go through it with a smile along with your no-nonsense exterior and eccentric behaviour. Who knows, your temporary roommates now will experience culture shock when they find out how loud you are. Ok kidding. You're all set. Just that I empathize you for not having the luxury of a comfy bed, air-conditioning, easy access to the internet, cute korean boys and such. Sabar eh jwa? teehee.
InsyaAllah, we will see you in two more weeks ok sistah? Good luck. This is just the beginning of a whole new chapter that's going to add more zest into the 18 years of your already colourful life. We love and miss you here in Shah Alam.
Assalamualaikum sister! (pretending I'm in UIA too. there's no harm in it kan kan hee)
I can be pretty feisty and nasty if you mess with me. Heck, even if you mess with one of us, you'll pay for it. You might see me acting all smiley and polite and nice to you, but that facade I put on is entirely out of respect. I still have my dignity intact, and also my claws. You have not only done this once, but twice, maybe even three times. Seriously woman, the fourth time and I swear I'll break you. Don't think I don't have the balls oh yeah in this case guts to do it. Oh you so do not know me if you think I'm not capable. Please consider yourself warned, thank you very much. (said with a curtsy)
"I cannot go to the ocean I cannot drive the streets at night I cannot wake up in the morning Without you on my mind So you're gone and I'm haunted And I bet you are just fine
Did I make that easy to walk right in and out of my life?"
I'm bursting, overflowing, overloading with happiness, though I am taking everything in slowly these days. I'm scared of hoping too much. But like what my Teddy baby said, every cloud has a silver lining. Well, I'm seeing it alright. mucho clearly. Even though my head has been in a rut lately and my feelings are jumping from one emotion to another, I'm just glad I'm here and I am free of all the things that used to bother me and made me wet my pillow every night, even if it means I have to do it all alone. Being single does not mean you're a loser or no one loves you. It is a way of saying "I can survive on my own." A guy does not have to complete you. You are already complete.
But don't get me wrong all you unavailable ladies. If you're in love and you're happy and the guy treats you like a princess, the way you should be treated and it's healthy, you're on the right track. Never ever ever be in a relationship just because. Just because you feel like it without feeling anything; any love, any care towards him. Just because everyone is in a relationship and you're not. Just because you feel left out. Just because you feel lonely. There are seriously many ways to occupy yourself without being with a guy. When you and him decide it's time to start something new together, you have to really 'be' in it, and feel it and love everything about it, him, what you two have, not according to your own idea of perfect love. You'll disappoint yourself when you find out him and you have flaws. And yes, follow through with every word you say. (G. DeGraw, 2003)
I don't know why I'm babbling about something I didn't plan on writing in the first place. Must be the weird feelings I'm experiencing. The point is,
I'm happy. And the reason behind is a secret. heee :)
p.s: I miss my tesl friends. bila nak makan/watch movies/go to the beach (harapan)/hangout together?
Despite my state of happiness that's been blossoming of late, one thing was missing. I just wish you were still here to witness all my smiles and laughs. My world seems to have lost its spark six months ago and I don't know when I'll have it again. I tremendously miss you. I really really really absolutely do.
I love you. It's been a long time since I've said these three words and it feels good. It feels really good.
"I dug my key into the side Of his pretty little souped-up 4 wheel drive Carved my name into his leather seat I took a Shah Alam slugger to both head lights Slashed a hole in all 4 tires And maybe next time he'll think before he cheats"
-Carrie Underwood, "Before He Cheats" edited
in our ways of getting even that is. jgn main main sama saya ye :)
"2 AM and I'm still awake, writing a song If I get it all down on paper, it's no longer inside of me, Threatening the life it belongs to And I feel like I'm naked in front of the crowd Cause these words are my diary, screaming out loud And I know that you'll use them, however you want to"
#6 Realize your mistakes. Repent. Forgive yourself. Repair. (can add your own ways here. if possible, legal ways only.) Move on.
I know I make it sound so simple, but these are guidelines. Some people have no directions at all, that's why I'm telling you all this. Believe me, I was always stuck at step number 3.
Suddenly I'm out of words to type. Maybe I'm having writer's block. Hopefully I'll be okay in a couple of days. Taking a break from yadayadayada is perhaps, quite needed.
Pikuniku Sem 4 '09 was a blast and I'm really glad it turned out well. Thank you guys for making it happen. I can't wait to see all of you next semester for part 5. I'm missing you guys alreadyyy...
Anyway, holiday is just starting and I don't know how to express my excitement for it. For starters, I'll be jetting off to Jakarta tomorrow for a family plus shop-until-we-drop holiday :D but only until Sunday. but I've never been there before so hopefully it's going to be greeeaaattt :D
And and I will be glued to my laptop, perhaps with a tub of ice cream, watching old movies I've asked a friend to download for me. Nothing beats great movies and zero worries. Just kick back and relax and enjoy these stories:
Dirty Dancing 2: Havana Nights (Diego Luna Diego Lunaaaaa)
Hope Floats (Sandra Bullock and Harry Connick Jr heeee)
Sixteen Candles
(this is a must watch for all teens/adolescents. You're missing out big time if you haven't watched it!)
The Breakfast Club (one of the best teen films in the 80's.)
Great Expectations (modernization of Charles Dickens' classic story. Has beautiful Gwyneth Paltrow and dreamy Ethan Hawke. hmm..)
After all the hard work of doing assignments and studying for finals, Kown, Nabil and Sheikh thought what better way to celebrate it than having a picnic for all of us? Me and Aina chipped in the fun too. No more PTE and Literature, we will stuff ourselves silly tonight!
Well, this isn't the official Pikuniku Sem 4 '09 poster, didn't have the time to do one but it does look cute right? Even Safwan said so. hehe :)
Event: A picnic and potluck for Teslians of Sem 4. (very the skema.) Where: MBSA field (near Masjid Negeri, BlueWave hotel, Bank Islam) When: 8 p.m till late Activities: Eating until we forget the world (mkn tak igt dunia), common games played at picnics. Haa mysterious kan? And I'll think dancing will be included. (Pah's request)
Do bring your own plates and cups and of course food!
This maybe the last time we'll see each other till next semester so your presence is a must people. See you guys tonight! :)
I should have given those gladiator heels a million second thoughts before putting them on to report for duty as a flower girl/pemberi bunga telur kpd 2000 guests. If my feet could speak, they would scream instead of asking me nicely to remove the shoes. But it's been ages since I've been a flower girl, so I didn't mind much. Congratulations to my cousin, Kak Nana who had just gotten married on Friday to her Abg Rihan. I'm happy for you. :)
Here are some pictures taken by my cousin, Abg Ezry. It was beautiful. berangan...
semua single. pilih cepat. hahaha.
Rihan Mohamad and Irni Eliana Khairuddin
Me, Jwa and Falahany
The newlyweds, the cameramen and woman, and the videographer
After obtaining a degree and a masters, she's off to pursue her PhD now.
Hopefully in another year or so, with a kid in tow. InsyaAllah :)
Congratulations!
More pictures at my facebook. Erm if you want to see lah. If you're suddenly interested in weddings.
As for my feet?
Was soaked and lathered with lotion and sock-ed. Now they're fine. :)
"Was it at the coffee shop? Or that morning at the bus stop When you almost slipped, and I caught your hand Or the time we built the snowman The day at the beach, sandy and warm Or the night with the scary thunderstorm I never saw the signs Now we've got to make up for lost time"
#4 Be thankful today. To your body. Every part of it; your hands, your legs, feet, arms, etc for each of their usage. For example, your legs for bringing you everywhere and do things; to school, to class, to pray and your hands for letting you take down notes, to eat, to drive, to salam your parents, you get the drill. Oh don't forget your Creator. Say Alhamdulillah. wholeheartedly. Now you're officially in love with yourself and God.
